chenged the color of the two spaces i have... both are the same style... the vampire style.. also i changed my icon as well.. for loving the vampires...

 

so.. how s the feeling? nice? bloody? or what? that's what i want ... anyway ... even tho started counting days since a few months ago .. now .. finally have got 2 days left.. 48 hours... cheer up man!

 

physics comes first.. and then is the English.. but still couldn't calm down properly... i left some words for my XUE DI XUE MEI on the other blog.. but in order to keep me away from wasting time.. i have to claim again to myself.. these days.. the only thing in my daily life is revision revision revision!!...well.. should be tho..

 

theoretically speaking.. i wont be renewing these blogs for at least 22days from now on coz those r gona be my exam times.. and don't wanna any time waste here..

 

wakakakakakakaka gota go..

 

tell ya a way of finding me.. my dear sis!

secretely.....:D—>phone me!!<—haha.. just like what you told me 肚子疼的时候最好的办法—>忍着。。。=。=

我报复心理还真强。

前两天+了几张这个学期的照片。。貌似生活无限美好。。

 

玩了好久没碰过并且也不会玩的秋千。。（但现在会玩了。。能自己荡很高。。）坐了小时候不敢玩的滑梯。。感受了夕阳无限好只是近黄昏。。感受了家的温暖。。感受了朋友的友情。。但这些美好的日子快要结束了。。真的是夕阳无限好。。只是近黄昏。。

 

你有理想么。。理想越美好。。揭示着生活越残酷。。而理想越简单。。预示着生活越无奈。。。小彧属于前者。。我属于后者。。小彧说。。他愿用十年换一天理想的生活。。

 

肚子疼。。疼到发慌。。疼到无法思考。。老毛病了。。幸好是在考试前。。。但考试。。我不知道。。我把握到底如何。。现在好像已经没了把握。。

 

算了。。就这样吧。。

actually it's good that i have 2 blogs.. since that one has been opened...and this one was written major in English... fewer ppl came to here.. it's a kinda quiet and peaceful..and nice of course... another funny thing i v discovered today is.. when i open my "statistics".. i found a website which links to google translating website...wow...someone is translating my words...O_o

 

tmr i have my chemistry re-mock exam.. told those lazy agents that they have to go to bed at once in order to sit the exam on time tmr morning but no one really listened to me ... i don't know whether it's a kinda shock but just know that they r like always ignore my existence... well.. u know.. it's a kinda feeling  bad.. especially after tonite... i left my key in sab's home... and all the things have happened.. a kinda feel the same as when i just left my previous friends.. and that kinda relationship... u know...those difficult to be discribed..

 

started to think abt whether those are worthwhile... but anyway.. i can get bk to the previous me... if i wish.. but stupidly.. i may never bear the damn lonleyness...wot's a shame..u know.. tears r now rushing out... but i try to hold the control of them.. shit...

 

i think i need more time..

 

my phy exam s coming on next Wedsday..and then it's English .. then chemistry.. i have to in all do some revisions on those... but u know.. it's a special time and facing special stuffs.. yeah.. well hopefully loads of u know the funny things between my parents and me ... their words really hurts me once more... i don't know how come i could be so stupid that fall into this trap again within 1 month even.. donnt wanna talk to them anymore before the final exams finish.. really tired of listening to their prolix stuff.... but whatever they say.. it hurts me.. annoys me and discourage me... hehe... could think no reasons and no excuses..

 

anyway.... donnt wanna sleep ... don't wanna be online either... again back to the thing i v mensioned in the beginning...why i m so keen to help those who doesn't care abt themselves at all?! it's really funny...  and at last the only person who worried abt them is me... the one has no business to do with them... OMG.. just wondering what am i doing...

 

okay i anounce : I AM OFF!! and it's non of my business any more.. from tmr..

1。不能待机

解决办法：无意中发现。。在其电池不满的时候可以待机。。

2。不能静音。。

解决办法：尚未发现。。

3。space 照片看不了。。

解决办法：好像是这边网络的问题。。无法解决。。

4。windows系统是盗版。。

解决办法：回国重装。。妈的。。该死的表哥的朋友。。竟然给我装盗版。。

5。布满病毒

解决办法：回国重装。。我没有安装盘。。

 

唯一还好的是。。还可以继续用。。但是这种紧要关头的时刻我宁愿他坏掉。。。

 

ok就这样吧。。死电脑。。

time flys. in 7days.. our finals r coming..!!

 

well.. these days i was watching animations of vampires... feel myself loving those vampires..of course the vampire hunters as well... the non-human creatures...realized that .. human's life can never be as long as those vampires.... but u know.. that's what human chose..

 

anyway.. don't know the purpose of renewing here.. just wanna type something.. gota study... i m now a kinda feel bad..

i don't know whether it s because of jet lag.. just wanna make myself sleep early and get up early..i ought to have English this morning at 9. but dont wnana go and see the wrinkled face of Rory and hear the "South African English"...and.. of coz do either physics or maths during his English lesson.

 

also.. i v goto study physics a little bit coz gona to sit a test today.. even tho donno where Simon can find another 15 min extra for us in order to complete the 75min session... exams coming soon. but i m akinda pissed off.. just cannt calm down and do works as usual.. tho everyone else says i m fine and i can get a 42/42 even without any revision.. but u know.. that s just because one has a origninal high level of intellegence and in others opinions.. she/he can never fail... this saying s a kinda funny isn't it...

 

ytday i wrote in the other blog abt the leavings.. well again have to say. so many things cannot be forgotten and so many ppl i m treasuring and will continue treasuring...also it's lucky to have my dear brother.. he always cures me and teaches me how to overcome those painful stuff.. with chatting to him.. i m feeling getting better and better..

 

umm study have to be kept up.. also have to tight my self up.. brother has his final exam for uni on 1st june.. when i have mine for high school on 2nd May.. he s already stressed up.. but look at me.. wow.. so relaxing.. o_O

 

i think there s one day.. for sure.. in my life .. only my sister.. my brother.. my aunty.. and my dear friends who ve left those beautiful memermories can stay up in my heart.. and rather like to forgetabt other suck stuff.. 

 

well.. time for breakfast.. stop doodling..

 

ah by the way.. i finally get the PT report.. congrats, that's another experience of being a st. clare's student..and keep having absences.. =)yeah~!!!!

今天。。美国的Virginia Tech大学有32个学生死于school shooting。。枪手尚未发现。。据说可能是个中国留学生。。

所以。。美国的朋友们。。你们小心。。

 

back to normal... the most memarable thing during this easter is .. when i was in S, i met a pretty girl who has the same pattion as Aly has. and she s really like Aly.. both her apperience and her characteristic.. and both my sister and i was got shock when we saw that. have to say.. ppl like Aly can bring others happiness.. like..angel..

 

值得一提的是。。今早起床之后碰到了我们的aly。。skype上面聊了几句。。aly还是原来那个样子。。她怎样都不会变。。就是嘛。。天使怎么可能变。。我们永远可以在她心里占上那么一小块。。真美好。。

 

和思达一起回来的。。飞机上和他聊了很多。。聊到了以前的同学们。。他今年也要去美国了。。北美的同学们还说要弄个什么北美同学会。。当初我们办那几个省在这里的也就这样从三个减成了两个。。谁知道子江之后去哪里呢。。天大地大。。还真有趣。。话说回来。。我们三个在这里还没有聚一聚呢。。而这次我考完试graduation的第二天就走。。又失去了机会。。真可惜。。

 

anyway.. realized that havn't finished hw properly.. damn phisics.. damn economics.. so strange, suddenly dislike anything.. lose the pattion to anything.. anyway.. have to study for a while.. i m, in all, a student..

 

today can see all in school..

babe temmu, she's just so cute of makin that mistake to XY..but u know.. really can feel her love..

babe sabrina.. i ll see her in Economics today.. don't be absent anymore..

babe joanna.. i ll see her in chemstry today.. heard abt the arguments between her and sabrina.. hope that didn't make any differences among we friends..

dear sy.. i may see him during the break outside the smocking area.. hope he can be a little bit fatter..

dear jason.. i may see him on the way to sabrina's house at some point this week.. he finally came to 19 yr old.. but still be a little bro to us.. hope he can be a little bit mature..

 

umm... who else..all my nabours.. all my classmates.. all my allies.. GOOD LUCK..

 

一个拥抱代表不了什么。。寄托了离别之痛。。

一个亲吻代表不了什么。。表达了怜悯之情。。

所以。。友情代表不了什么。。只是生命的全部罢了。。

那更所以。。爱情也代表不了什么。。只是生命中画龙点睛的一笔而已。。

 

treasure wot i have now... don't look forward to those i can never.. ever reach...

dear temmu.. how r u in Oxford?

 

i v got lots of things wanna say to ya after coming back... there r only 4 days left.. but really can't wait... me 2 don't know y.. there s something that only wanna tell you.. as you did before..

 

know that you may be so lonely these days especially when sabrina and joanna were away to london.. and during those days.. couldn't go to the internet and kept you acompany coz i went back to my own home instead of living with my sister.. facing parents only brings me lots of confusion... mum used to say a word which hurts me really much... and the feeling .. u know.. nolonger like mum-daughter.. i don't know.. tho finally we were fine but still it left barrier between us.. also.. the "love thing" was a kinda damn.. anyway i ll try my best to recover it and move on..

 

i ll be there in 4 days time.... i m already tired... and the revision was crap... anywya... i m looking forward to seeing the new word.. tho it maybe not really "new"..

this piece is writen for Z.. so.. use Chinese..

 

那个。。总之感谢。。但我发现我好像不能释然。。呵呵。。那天。。其实没勇气继续跟你聊下去的。。但又更没勇气放弃和你说话的机会。。不管怎样痛。。我还是坚持到了最后。。

 

可能你并不想知道我的任何事情了。。但我这人。。没办法。。有事情不说出来很难受。。但又不想让你很困惑。。所以就把另一块地方的权限改了。。sorry了。。等我释然了。。。我会改回来。。希望。。你别不理我吧。。像以前一样就好了。。当作这4个月消失掉了。。好么。。

 

嗯。。就这样吧。。想想昨天好像。。最后你也没有表明你要不要采取我最后说得那个建议。。不过没关系。。我想我能坚持。。哎呀没办法。。跟你说话的时候就是很。。。。小心。。很不是我自己。。。

 

anyway。。时间长了就好了。。手又开始抖了。。不说了。。

 

祝。。开心。。还是那句话。。生活中有趣的事情还真多。。慢慢享受好了。。虽然有时候会小小的疼一下。。

很久没来这里了。。其实也只不过是10天。。总觉得日子过得很慢。。比如现在。。

想回英国了。。感觉在中国只能得到空虚。。除此之外。。什么都没有了。。没有留恋的事。。没有留恋的人。。妹妹和我同行。。姑姑和妈妈在想念的时候可以打电话。。现在我唯一留恋的人。。却又不给我留恋他的机会。。所以。。我厌倦这里。。。

 

has already planned the days after the finals.. driving licences.. travel permision...those are the things have to get...besides..wanna be along for a whole square of time....haha ..a square of time..donno whether there is the experisson in English..anyway.. werid expressions always give me inspirations..

 

潜意识里。。我总是很善良的相信总有一天我的亲人们可以完完全全和睦相处。。可以不计前嫌。。可以不要那么势力。。因为若不经提醒。。我早已忘记姥姥姥爷是如何待我。。亲人们的目光是如何的不公平。。然而记起来了。。也就这样记起来了。。也没有说怨恨或者想要报复。。我以为大家都和我一样。。结果好像我有些过于天真。。

 

a song says.. my childish gives me courage...

sometimes being childish is just apropriate .. donnt need to explain....

anyway.. that's only something curious.. nothing to do with ya...

 

收拾一下。。看着未来。。双手里至少还留下些东西。。即使那些是眼泪。。

tears s beautiful ... especially for those like me.. i ll always be there for you.. nomatter you treasure or not.. like love.. love ... love..